>> Monday, January 21
Days like this just seem to go on and on and on. It’s cloudy today and so quiet. I can hear the rustle of the leaves gently blown by the cold wind. The silence, not the coldness of the wind, makes me shiver. Right at this very moment I can feel the emptiness around me; the unforgotten past that still haunts the soul; and the fear of tomorrow – the uncertainties it would bring.
Let me share to you a text message I received yesterday: “Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain because you’re not dying. You’re not even sick. For all intents and purposes, you’re perfectly fine. Yet inside, where your heart used to be, you hurt so much that you can’t breathe, you can’t sleep, and you can’t stop the tears from falling…”
Life can be so unfair sometimes. You make your dreams, plan your future, so certain on how to live your life – you thought you have everything you could ever want – only to be taken away by a single decision. A mistake so inevitable no matter how run, it always catches up and takes holds of you no matter how you struggle.
To a friend, a sister –
Keep in your heart
A reminder of the past,
of feelings best forgotten and laid down to rest.
That the heart be made whole and at peace;
and new love, true love, can flourish;
and bring happiness