No one to blame

Nothing to do…
Nothing to lose…
No one to blame
For this path that I chose

I do make mistakes
I tend to lose my way
With no one to blame
But this life of despair

Time seems so long
When I’ve got nothing to do
When my life seems so empty
And the silence steals my sanity

This empty space of nothingness
Seems to run forever
Yet my time seems ending
And I’ve got nothing to share

The loud echo of silence
Screams the sounds of sorrow
Walking in the path of uncertainty
With only the black night to guide me

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wla lang...

I'm bored and I'm tired... these new policies we have to follow sucks the life out of me like Dementors do (in their case, happiness). This "prison camp" is guarded with so much Dementors that every day what's left of my sanity is taken away bit by bit. I can't blame the people around me if they think I'm bitchy these days. This prison camp sucks.. but as Lurchie said I have to find another (much better) work before leaving this place of suffering. Ok I'm rambling again... I have a hundred reasons to leave this place, but still have a thousand reasons to stay... hmph... I'm going insane.

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I have a new puppy (a milllion thank yous to Daphne). Her name's Odie... She's a half dachshund–half something... She's sooooo cute, with adorable eyes, and a sweet face. I'll post some pixies later.. teeeehehehehe

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Oohh... my birthday's coming up… I'm planning to go to Cebu next week and then to Kawasan, if nothing else would prevent me from going. (Who knows...)

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My mind's in whirl right now.. I can't seem to keep things in order... til later...Am i making sense at all? heheh

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Bitter truth or sweetest lie

Sometimes it's not love... sometimes you've just become so attached that you developed a need for that person... just a need... not love... but you're too scared to admit it even to yourself...'cause you know that if you do, you might lose the only person that actually gives a damn about your life.

These words keep haunting me. What if this is true? One day you just realize that you don't really love that person. But you're in this relationship that you just don't have the guts to walk away from. Is that love when you can see your future together? Or is it merely just a need. A need so great that it blinds you... it blinds you to the point where love is only an illusion... Would you be happy? Could you both be happy?

Love cannot be measured. If someone loves you this much, should you also return that same degree of love? What if you just don't know how? What if you can't? What if you're not capable of loving that much? Would you still be happy or just obliged to be? So many questions... so many what ifs... Would you choose the bitter truth or the sweetest lie?

So tell me which one is real: "I love you because I need you" or "I need you because I love you"

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